Geez, this is my last semester and I'm so stress and nervous. It's the fact that I'm facing the few hardest subject I've ever learnt and also I'm at risk of entering Honours next year. Somehow, it's half way through the semester and I have to continue to thrive hard for it.
Assuming that I don't get into Honours, then I'll be entering into the work force. Well, somehow, I think I'm scared that I can't handle work, I'm not ready to work, I'm not prepared to go to the next level...etc. Why am like that suddenly? I don't know why, because I've been trying hard to get internship last year and I've succeeded to work in Securities Commission this year that I'm giving up now? I won't give up of course but maybe it's the sense that I feel empty and suddenly just don't have a passion to move forward. I guess there's times that you're afraid that where you're heading but you know you just have to keep moving forward. Then, you feel guided by anything else you see in front of you which then you realized that you're not heading to the direction you might want. Then you just have no idea what you want anyway, so it's just erm...just keep on walking down the path?
Two days back I just sudden struck with immense stress because I'm lack behind in my course work and keeping on track is really tough. Not just that, I realised that I can't have enough time to handle CT7. Thus, I think I'm not going to sit for CT7 this coming October. Geez, I just didn't realize that I made a wrong prediction and thought it's gonna be easy. Anyway, I just have to get a sick leave on the exam date so that can apply for fee forwarding later then. Hope things will go fine.
Lastly, I'm shifting today to city. I suddenly just feel so hollow to the fact that I miss this place. I realized that I'm really lucky to have been staying here for my whole uni-life. I cannot regret for making the transition decision but to be more confident with the coming future. I hope everyone's life will turn better that way. Of course, I have to have confidence that I can live independently and I can manage things well. I guess this semester is camping in the library for the whole semester so that I can ascertain that I can do well for the semester.
Till then, good luck and take care. Life's a journey to be lived, not to be wasted.
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*a healed memory is not a deleted memory* I like it! =)
I hope u dun stress out too much over there cos u know u have my support always here..
good luck n take care to u too..
*hugs*
-YFoong-
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