University =END=

The end of University Life... finally? Is that good, or bad? I guess it's good tat finally I'm out of university to start living on my own now. Just as I dreamt of it to life independently and live my life as I wanted to live it. Yet reality is that the financial crisis happening and all the job cuts, seems like the next year is going to be tough time for me to look for a job.

Anyway, life in university has been rough and I have been lazy for now. I think I should really motivate myself now to keep things going and making plans for future properly. Life's

House Matters

Haha, well it's been fun in the house today. Tony and Benny was shaving their heads while it's still so short. I can't stand it cos it's like shaving their beard but at a higher position :p Then, had Morgan missing his Ipod yesterday after being drunk I guess. He definitely don't look happy but I just thought he looked like a small boy missing his toy. Anyway, don't even mention that I tried smoking weed today :p It's v "relaxed". I can just feel my head's dropping >,< Can't walk straight....but funny that I can still type so fast now !:??!!

Tony's shave
After shave...cool right??
Benny before shaving
After... any difference at all???!!!
Morgan's upset. Hopefully he'll cheer up soon!!!

Contact Night

Well, it occurs once a year where I will go to this careers night to meet company representatives. We call this "Contact Night" and it's cater for only actuarial people. So, imagine this is the only or perhaps the rare social events for actuarial students. For those out there, you're right that we're not that sociable. Of course, this year's guest speaker was very interesting. 1st he talked about the market crisis and that how the market crisis would sustain. Then, he started mentioning about how the banks screwed up everything because they often thought they know what's happening which is often not the case. The "it's okay" scenario being happening too often that became "not okay" now! lolz, quite hilarious how he put the speech together. Of course, nothing less will lead to risk management and that he relate back to our profession. Lastly, he spoken about the job prospects for our profession. Trust me, he's saying there's small chance for our profession since we're in financial service sector. THis just disgust me ... grad soon n market in a turmoil :p Bad Luck I guess!!!

The following photos are just got from friends since I haven't had a camera yet. Sienz...
Me being..."hmm???"

Me, looking good. perhaps gorgeous, maybe even better. Your judgement !!!
Anita and I

The Actuarial Honours Students 2008

Life Update 13th October 2008

Well, many times in life where I feel so lost and everything. I guess finally I found someone to share my life now. It's just beginning but it's all fresh and good. I seemed to don't take things seriously, but that's how I intend to make it so. It's just like how all relationships develops and that's how I think it often just have to play slow in order to last longer. Of course, having fun is the essential part of the initial stage. Probably I often laugh at her and she often claim that I'm mistreating her!!! Come on, it's fun sometimes to tease each other.
Anyway, other than that, I'm just here slacking in my wonderful house here. Foxtel just get so addictive. What's more, I have my housemates often around that I get so busybody to watch movies with them. I don't say that I'm very active person, but I tend to sneak ard n have a chat with them. Really enjoy their accommodation all the time.
I used to make them try some Asian food since my housemates are Irish. I let them try mooncake on Mooncake Festival, then try the "Tiger" biscuit that I often buy on the way from Ipoh. Lolz, they're like looking so scared after that since they often think that I"m giving them weird n strange stuff. So, today was so hot that I bought ice-cream back. I'm happy that everyone have a share, so I asked them if they'll like some. Everyone's just "no...not at all, Ken. Thanks for the offer" But once I hit the name "It's Cookies n Cream?!!" Collin started, "Oh, my favourite, This is fucking Awesome!!" Catherine: "Can I have wee-bit of the ice-cream". Louise already had her spoon in the ice-cream before I even had my own bowl lined up. lolz!!! It's often enough for me to feel contented that everyone's feeling the joy in the house.
Few days back, Kyu, Tony and I went to the beach since it's such a good weather that day. We went to Brighton to relax awhile. Haha, it's not much but it's just some quiet time to relax in life I guess.

Nice sun. But I think my camera's havin some dust that made the mini-solar eclipse. lolz

Just us three guys sun-bathing. Oh, this is sure not BayWatch, but these are all sexy guys up for grabs!!! lolz...Picked up a complete shell. Just for fun !!!


On the way home, I just thought the view was nice. haha!!! :)Nice Harley Davidson anyway :p ( I think it's Harley :p)

Yamada Taro Monogatari

This two weeks break, I've been working on my assignments but also slacking as well. Yesterday I went to watch Wall-E. Geez, I must say it's really good, much much better than I expected. The global earth's devastation seen from the director is to show the aftermath rather than the happening. I must say it's quite a good film in this perspective to send out the message. Furthermore, it also breaks the technology barrier in human sense that is pursuing to improve so much, it just destroyed the very foundation of our own life. The turn in the storyline is at the plant part where out of whole situation, the plant seems like bring hope back to life. Of course, the rational at the stage to fight back to be green is too late, but the message of not being green earlier than later is sent.
Then, now I'm watching this Japanese Drama Series call Yamada Taro Monogatari. Well it's about this guy being poor but he lived a contented life. The funny part is that he was let to a position that he's a rich and famous kid in school for being good-looking. Of course, not to mention that he starts to attract guys in the drama as well, lolz!!! Anyway, the movie also depicts the love life considerations that young girls overlook. It also gives the energy of youngsters have in life and how meaningful life can be. So, adding both together gives the cherish in life while still young. Normally I find Japanese series being very boring because they tend to drag the storyline, but not this one though. This drama also gives hope to people in all situations where sometimes things may seem not as pleasant.
Anyway, I guess life's like that, we just often like to see good things happen while sitting there watching people enjoying their life.

Happy 21st Birthday Iti!!!

What a party tonight celebrating Iti's 21st birthday party. I guess, it's an event for some mixture of actuarial peoples and non-actuarial people. This made us so boring :p Anyway, here's some highlights of the night.
Happy Birthday Iti!!!

Life Update

Life's full of changes and living but seems like it's been awhile since I made a report on my life, lolz. Well, what I can say? It's just got over with the car accident for now after paying a huge amount that I'm making it up by taking part-time jobs. I'm quite proud about myself for working these two weeks without taking out any money from my bank, especially for my daily expenses.

Of course, there's always some sacrifice in some part of my life but I'm okay with it. Now that I'm working as a caller for my university as a philanthrophy program. I must say it's quite professional and I'm learning quite a lot these two days training. What's more, after today's 1st training, I realised that my voluntary for fundraising for my university last year finally paid off. I was lucky to get into this caller program since I know one of the coordinator of the program. Of course, I guess I also have some skills that they're interested as well :p

Then last week I received a very shocking news that worried me. My mum was said to had cancer on the Friday. Then before the report of her test came out on Monday, I was like living restlessly, thinking how's this world like without my mum around and suddenly I felt that I'm like a small boy again. The holding hand, the carrying that I often request all the time, it suddenly feel so far away already. I still remember on Monday the song "Li Ren" kept playing in my head although I'm fighting with myself to be more positive. Fortunately, my mum's report came out okay for her cancer is curable and it's not as critical as expected. The treatment will take 6 months and I guess she won't be able to make it for my graduation by the end of the year. I say it's okay with little disappointment but she's proud of me is good enough already.

Geez, I guess not to update with too much words again. Haha, probably shall type till here for now :))

What Surprise News Released...

Today I've finally took an initiative to look at the headlines in TheStar and found that the political arena arise some issues about our former prime minister and current. It's quite absurd to find that our former PM is so "free" to mess things up in the political arena although he has resigned from his administrative post. Then, I further read about an article on Malaysia Today regarding DrM's resignation and the dilemma that his "supposed" plan to hand his position to Najib and denied to hand it to Abdullah. It then stated that Abdullah simply is not capable of fulfilling his daily duties, yet the dilemma is how did he get there anyway? Not to mention, the article further states about several candidates like Anwar who was so capable of taking over the position and yet later on forced to step down for whatever reasons to be known. Somehow or rather, the Malay politics is getting so dirty and uncontrollable that I think it's going out of hand. Now that this election, BN faced a huge pain in the ass for the election result, of course, finally Malaysians are doing sometime the right way. I don't agree to the extend that BN is totally unacceptable, but its the lack of competition in the political arena that will not make it better and of course, will drag down the performance of the country. Think of how come the Malaysia system in older times are better than now? Let's get into more effective evaluation. How do I mean by better is that how the society behave and how's things happening. You can have all the fast pace technology you can, but it does not mean that the raping cases around the society will come down. If you see how the people in Malaysia is working and just to find a living, think of how the working life have been as in olden days. You can say that we are working in offices and very much more comfortable, but what kind of stuff are you producing? How long do you need to work? What do you get at the end of the day is different from what a farmer in olden days get after a day spent in the Padi field. At least he gets satisfaction that the day's weather is pleasent, his crops are looking good and harvest is coming that leads to another good year to come. While I'm working in companies, I just find that there's no satisfaction somehow and I don't even think my boss is that enthusiastic. He's just there to get paid for sitting there and read newspaper :p God knows what he's up to. The attitude of the society, the harmonious environment that has disappeared because of just a few things are not in place.
Racism, political control and everything else....what goes around, comes around. So, we are starting to see the effects of the deeds that everyone, I'm not blaming only the government, did in the society. Somehow or rather, if no one fights for their rights, no one cares for anything that they think is not right, the need to fight and care will disappear and everyone will just live by as it is as seen as the situation now in our society. So, what Hindraf did is one very significant and I agree to the occurrence of the event. It not only reminds people of the bravery to stand out for themselves, but also the sorrow they have hidden in them for years. That night on Thaipusam on my way to Genting, friends warned me about Hindraf might have some movement on the night and the streets might not be safe. Screw that, kind of think of it, no way that's going to affect me because I think that Hindraf is not going to hurt me in any way and no one wanna arrest me for any reason. Unless I start supporting them for what they're aiming to do :p Overall, the fight for independence (maybe not so extravagant) is very important for a person's everyday life. After coming here, I realised that the life that I live in Malaysia is somehow so limited not because I'm poor but because of how the system and society's impression set onto each other. So, the limit that everyone set to others will set a limit back to themselves and therefore, we're all limited to growth and improvements.

Runaway... the imagination of the word keep occur in my mind these days after spending most of my time playing Dota. Runaway from what? Runaway from studies, life and everything else. Nothing's done and nothing is in order in my place now. I've been living like a slacker for the past few weeks n it doesn't feel comfortable. Yet, how to change something even though we're not comfortable? I don't know now....I can't seem to be more determined as before to do any changes.

The conflict in the mind thinks about whether what I'm studying is actually decreasing my confidence. Well, kind of think of it, I chose this subject and it is known for all challenges. Therefore, it seems like I did not take the challenge head on, while lying there let the challenge be as it is. So, this is the question whether how do I face something rather than what is faced is not do-able.


Somehow, the feel of running away is so good. To be very honest, I really like to runaway. I know this is equivalent to the definition of irresponsible, yet who don't like it? Try listening to this...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MNxoLjxgp1A&feature=related
this is just the sweetness of running away and just releasing yourself to be who you really am and what you really is. I guess, the song implied that nothing is impossible and you have to fight for whatever you want and set yourself free....

Happy New Year 2008!!!

Well, today I was sent an email from Shiny Stats that just shown me that I’ve got friends always around me. Some I know who might be there but some I might have no idea yet. Somehow, it seems like friends sometimes don’t have to be around you physically now in this digital world to stay connected. Well, some may ask how come I haven’t been blogging for awhile now? Sorry for the late posting, been busy playing, holidaying, cleaning up mess, interning n learning… lolz of course feeling happy back in M’sia. Let’s say I miss my family, my dog and new n old friends.

1^st thing when I touch down from Australia, my luggage wasn’t supposed to be unpacked it’ll be needed to be there when I shift to BU soon. Since this house seems to be too big, we need to shift to a house right for us. This just reminds me of the time when the time I just shifted from our Taman Megah linked house to this house, I missed the old house so much. Now that we’ve been here for almost 8 years that I’m missing this room as I spent my time throughout my high school period. I’m not the kind of person that I will miss the things when it’s going to be out of my hand, but I cherished it as much as possible at my hand. Yet it’s not always going the way as expected in life. Let it be a good memory and warmth to be kept in mind where this place has been. Cuddling with Ben in my front yard, using up the space to exercise, napping on my “tatami” living room, hehe!!, not to mention, having all family members spending time together in this warm house. It’s not exceptionally grand or special, but it’s enough to stay away from the rain n storm.

Now I’m just feeling like a small boy that I’ll pull as hard as possible not to let go this house. Yet, I guess reaching this age of myself, I should realize that face reality boldly and accept it is more important. Perhaps I’ll get used to the environment before I return to Australia later.