To be the main character...

To reach the highest is not the easiest thing to do in life. To gain not respect, but follow your inspiration to reach the highest point in life is the hardest route to move on yet it's the only satisfying journey that I can head to. It's no more lazy lifestyle or gaming world now but to thrive deep into the bottom and see the heaven way up high. Along the way is full of sour and bitter yet the anticipating sweetness will come soon just triggers the confidence and courage to take another step forward. Chicken as I am, cowardly as I was, and lonely as I'm always...yet I can only walk the path alone but not to have any hand to support me along the way.
Yes that I'm desperate to find my the other half but it seems that I often find the wrong one and unable to accept the ones that liked me for I'm unable to be inspired to like them. For truth can only surfaced in matter of time while lies will only grow a mark on my forehead.
I'm a man of weakness in me that I can only move forward to be tough. I'm bored and often live in dull yet only speed and momentum inspire me for keep on moving will as if tell me that this boring life is going to be over soon. I'm moving on to another world and discovering another new place and see new things. If I stop moving, I feel that I'm stuck somewhere, in a no-man's-island or in a desserted city. Often the sense of dead flowers grow beside me for plants are unable to blossom around me and I would warn people to keep away from me for I bring disaster and pain, tears and scars and even disease in their life. I can't stop the spread but to partition everything away from me so the rotting will surround me and negativity will be absorbed and contained in me until one day I can dissolve it and live again.
Till that day, let the elements around me rejuvenate to grow some new plants. For every touch may not give life, but hopefully every miles I walk will give hope.